What a time 2020 has been! Things all over the world are in such a flux that I’m sure it’s not only me who feels uncertain. Every morning it seems I wake up and think, “What’s going to happen today?”
For me, being in isolation or quarantine has been difficult. I’m an extrovert, and working from home, in isolation, is taking its toll. Sure, I’ve got chat’s going with colleagues, videos with family and friends, and I’ve even had a phone conversation with a newly acquired mental health counselor, but it’s no substitute for normal interaction, or the occasional hug. This may seem silly, but I thrive on conversation and smiles that happen as you pass someone in the hall or on the street. With limited contact with “my people,” I am starving for genuine conversation, as I’m sure others are.
Additionally, a huge trigger of mine is abandonment. Right now, not being able to see (and hug) my family and friends is bringing that trigger up for me. As we all know, triggers aren’t always logical, so it’s been up to me (and my mind-speak) to remind myself that this isolation is for the best and that at some point it will be over.
However, if I am left to my own devices for too long, I tend to think too much. I think about my regrets (many) and my future (uncertain) and then feel like I’m not good enough or won’t ever find someone to be with. Then the downward spiral starts.
For now, I’ve noticed that the occasional one-person dance party seems to help bring me out of my funk. I turn on music streaming and turn up the TV and go! After a few songs I’ve got endorphins running through my blood and a boost to my mood.
I encourage you all to discover something that you can look forward to doing on a daily basis, in substitute for human interaction. Pets seem to be the best choice, but a dance party can help too! I hope this isolation ends soon, as I’ve got lot of stored-up hugs to give! Stay safe!